Guilty Female Sadists

I want to experience this… i’m getting hard thinking about a woman beating me….

How nice for you. You do realize this is a note about women becoming comfortable with their own sexuality?

There are not only women who are turned on by seeing a man suffer. There are also men that can’t live without the pain and suffering. So it’s natural, simply said.

I like women/ female sadists. cause me pain and let me look at you…mmmmmmm

Hello, I ama 27 year old closeted sadist/domme and I think I’m going to crack soon. I go through these highs and lows when I talk to men online who actually enjoy me and want to meet. But then I get sad and angry at my husband; “Why can’t he want me this way?”

I love my husband, but he wasn’t honest about his limitations when we got married and assumed I would figure it out on my own, which I did.

I suppose my only question is; What to do? I don’t know how much longer I can continue being in a situation like this (which I realize is my fault for thinking I could change him)

I don’t know whether I want to scream while biting nails in two or just curl up and sob because the love of my life isn’t really for me after all.

Anybody else going through this?

Many sadists and masochists have had to face this: being married or in a committed relationship with a vanilla partner.

Some people work it out so that they can play with third party. Do the kinky stuff by nothing conventionally sexual or affectionate.

But most often the need for full self-expression, personal fulfillment leads to divorce or break-up.

Thank You, Richard.

I suppose that will happen sooner or later (break-up) I’d just rather it happen later.

It’s nice to know that I’m not the only one who feels insecure about being a sadist. God knows how I have hated myself for being attracted to other people’s pains to such extremes.. I really thought I was in the stages of becoming a necrophiliac someday.. >.<

@Missbluestockings why dunt u accept that ur husband’s pain thresholds r less than what u desire so either u try to get satisfied by what he can suffer safely or u can go and see a shrink (Probably a female one) Most shrinks these days r trained in S&M Disorders.

Hello I am a 22 year old closeted sadist. It is getting really hard for me to control my needs. The problem is that I am somewhat bigger than most women. While I am not huge I AM heavy. This makes it VERY hard to find someone to feel for me sexually. I also am very shy about my feelings due to the fact that all of the men in my life if not turned off by my weight would be disgusted and/or disturbed when I would tell them of my love of causing pain. Most cursed at me and one even tried to hit me. Because of this I find it hard to trust anyone with the truth. I feel like I am going to snap from my feelings soon, and sometimes I end up crying myself to sleep wondering if anyone will ever accept me. I am sorry this post is so long but I REALLY needed to get this out there. Can someone anyone please help me with this? Thanks.

Allison I am sure there is plenty of man waiting for a good beating by bigger lady. Why don’t you register on one of the platforms for BBW (big beautiful woman)? Just be honest about yourself and reveal your sadistic needs at the start…

Dear miss Bluestocking, The thought of your bluestocking wrapped around my slaveballs with the soles in my mouth is a real turn on for me. That said you need an outlet. I hope you can bring your husband up to speed or find another outlet.

Hello guilty sadists! No reason to be. As previously stated by others, there are countless men who would be very happy to be tortured by a woman, no matter what her appearance. For me, the criteria was NEVER a woman’s look, but rather, the potential for sadism. In my younger years, I was a wuss compared to now. What I thought was heavy pain then, is Mickey Mouse compared to now. That came to pass as my then girlfriend, now wife, slowly came to learn she was far more sadistic than original thought. She feared raising the severity of the genital torture and canings would be a turn-off for me. But as she increased the volume slowly, I was on-board all the way. Now, blood routinely drips down my legs after beatings and my genitals are spotted with blood after being tortured with a medical instrument. Beatings have become nearly daily now and my ass is always black and blue, welted and hard. My suggestion to uncertain sadists is first, be absolutely sure you are dealing with a genuine masochist (there really are plenty of genuine male submissives), then talk and act out ever more violence. If there is a corresponding aroused penis, you’re on the right track.

I’ve posted to this thread before, and am revisiting it after a particularly brutal beating my wife gave me last night. We just received “vampire gloves” and she first rubbed my genitals bloody before taking me over her knee and spanking me bloody. That was followed by what she said was 700 strokes with a bamboo cane. It broke or there would have been more. It was by far the worst/best torture of my life. This morning, I am thinking about how dreary life was before I met her 17-years-ago and how frustrating it was before I left my vanilla girlfriend 11-years-ago to be with my now sadist wife. Like most, I knew of my “orientation” at the time of puberty, but since my interests are generally considered taboo, life has mainly featured vanilla girlfriends with a few sporadic thrills via sadistic women I have met over the years. Unfortunately, for someone who is only comfortable in a monogamous relationship, these encounters were with promiscuous women and always came to a relatively quick end as a result. I just could not adjust to these on and off affairs. But as miserable as that made me, there was no refuge with vanilla women. At first, I thought I would have to adjust to vanilla to avoid infidelity, but after a while I learned it was just as bad as the promiscuity. For the first time in my life, I cheated with my now wife while still with my vanilla girlfriend. At that time, we were not practicing the sort of domestic violence we do now so there were no lingering marks on my ass. As the years rolled by I began to realize I might not ever be in a truly satisfying relationship; one that would be defined by fidelity AND cruelty. As hard as it was, and after 6 long years of agonizing over this decision, I finally ended the vanilla relationship and entered into a full-time relationship with my sadistic friend. A year later we married. Since then, the pain she inflicted has increased to where we are now; a place I never thought possible. Hell, I never even fantasized about being beaten bloody and neither did my wife when we first got together; it slowly developed over the years. But now, it seems so natural; the way it should be. After all these years, I am finally in, what is for me, the perfect relationship: married to a brutal sadist defined by fidelity. If I did not make that life choice 11-years-ago, I would still be masturbating and miserable. I guess the punch line here is, if you are seriously into this life-style, do not get too deeply involved in a relationship where you will never be fulfilled. It’s not fair to your vanilla friend anymore than it is to yourself. Go the extra mile and find the right person or you may find yourself masturbating your life away instead. What would be the point in that? It may be a long process as it certainly was for me, but is also truly worth the effort. You would not be reading this right now if it was not important. You are here right now because this life-style defines you. You really do not have a choice.